Hello lovely readers! It’s been a while since I, Ava, sat down to actually update the blog. I do have some writings worked on, but my focus hasn’t been there for the final polishing (like adding links). So I apologize. This is a much awaited post. Lenore and I finally get some intimate time, my first time with a woman, my first kiss with one too. So get ready for some nervous lesbian loving.
Timid Touching
So we started with holding hands. I had to take anxiety medications to get to this point. I had to tell her I had wanted to hold her hand but literally couldn’t I move my hand from my body. She replied “I can do something about that” and took my hand. I drew comfort enough to ask her to kiss me (because I was frozen in fear). It was snugly, she likes to nuzzle.
I panicked and cried after kissing a bit. We kept pausing and talking between kissing. She was nervous she would break me, emotionally or physically. I realized a day or so ago that the fear that was causing panic was that fear of my own sexuality. If I give in to my desires I could ‘destroy everything’ was the thought, though I knew with my GF and husband that was completely not true.
Let’s Lose the Clothes
We moved from the living room to my bedroom. We began to remove clothes before getting on the bed. I felt both nervous and excited. It was different then the first time a man sees me naked, all of it feels different to some extent. What doesn’t feel different is my sexuality, I felt so natural.
I knew she liked my breasts, but it’s to the point of worship. I just wasn’t expecting that level of boob interest. Its something I never experienced. It was tender, flattering, and intensely intimate.
I had seen her naked once before, only when we were changing in the same room when we were young. I turned just as she pulled her jeans down, they caught her panties, pulling them down as well. At the time her pussy had a small patch of brown. That’s when I knew blonds were not blond in their pubic hair. Now however she prefers to stay clean shaven, something I have no preference for.
Her breasts are fairly small, especially compared to mine. She can shop at any store to find a bra that fits. They suit her petite frame.
Lesbian Liaison
We were both shocked just how comfortable we were. It was so organic and felt so right. We spent around 2 hours naked in bed. It was incredible.
She’s never cum with a new partner, but I got her to build several times, and even got her to stay at the edge of orgasm for at least 15 minutes. It was super intense.
Sadly I didn’t build at all, but her fingers are literally too short to reach my g spot. Which was disappointing to both of us. At the time I needed a surgery on my cervix, so anything more than a few inches wasn’t allowed to penetrate me. I don’t have any good shorter dildos.
I didn’t expect to cum at all because I knew my head wouldn’t be able to. But it was just wonderful.
Final Note:
I’m not done yet, but I want to recommend a book for those interesting in exploring. Honestly I think it can be useful for anyone who has sex with women. I’m not getting anything for recommending this, just honestly learned a lot and felt like sharing: The Whole Lesbian Sex Book: A Passionate Guide for All of Us